Seek and Find

Couldn’t figure out really how I got stuck and how to get unstuck. Of course I know biblical principles. We know it says faith without works is dead.

Well just like that revelation became clear. Surely, I was blocking my own clarity. It  was 4 am one morning I had just come thru a tragic occurrence for my family. So out of my despair the word I’ve heard forever became clearer with a fresh perspective. Seek me and you will find me…

It didn’t say I’ll seek and find you.

See all of my career I was sought after. Besides just showcasing my natural God given talents I didn’t have to do a lot of work to do to get noticed. So until now I didn’t realize I got settled in that routine. So when my family life shifted and I had to take a step back to focus on my children more time passed than I realized. Then I got stuck. I kept seeking God on how to get out of my corner I’d lodged myself into. However, I believe in my hiatus I weakened my strength by not moving. I knew I’d done something wrong and for the fear of making the wrong choices I did NOTHING at all! Now I’ve allowed fear to attach to me without  me saying ok you can come in,smh. Remember when doing nothing you actually are still doing something. You’ve heard fear paralyzes???

Now that fear had weakened me guess what? That diminished my confidence. The girl who once had so much confidence it intimadates others was now doubting herself. But in my heart I wasn’t doubting God it was just me lacking assurance that whatever decision I chose was right. Now what you have to see is. I started second guessing myself. So as I was coming to myself I started sensing that those ppl who looked up to me was like dag I thought she was more confident and bolder than this? I began feeling like my lack of boldness, confidence and second guessing was letting them down. See I know I’m the answer for a certain group of ppl. I have a precise assignment. So when I’m stuck I can’t produce nor fulfill my assignment. No longer is just being good enough the way. For this season for me to move to glory to GLORYYY I must do the work. Hence, when I MOVE out of my comfort zone. The shell I’d grown accustomed to. The no they will reach out to me and ask me then I will show up and show OUT zone. God showed me one morning your stretching will come from YOUR movement ,your seeking,your initiating. Then and only then will your provisions meet you. But Sherritta you must MOVE.

IT summed up the mantra God gave me for 2015, GO FORTH. I now correlated that to your NEXT is on the other side of your obedience your own follow thru! GO means move that’s a form of SEEK. Seeking God first is the first door so every door after that leads to our desires.

Listen it took my vulnerability, my mental exhaustion, my weakness from crying terribly dealing with this heartbreaking occurrence. Which almost altered the course for my family’s entire life… but GOD even blocked that! But in my weakness I had no choice but to be so still that as I tried to settle down to sleep I couldn’t. All this downloaded so quickly. It was like the floodgates burst OPEN!!! and guess what when God gives you something He doesn’t stop until He is FINISHED. That’s the benefits of SEEKING GOD FIRST and letting him add all things unto YOU!!!

You’ll be surprised what you find when you SEEK GOD FIRST.

-Sherritta Matthews Davis